Kim.

I don't want to feel close anymore.

Woke up and just had strawberries, blueberries, and orange juice for breakfast. Ice-packing my knee now, in more pain than I expected this morning .

You must tell me about this lol. --- I'm just getting "out" of bed, which consisted of getting up and fixing a bowl of cereal and leaning up against my headboard. I've been so uncomfortable. Arrrgh.

I walked the Holocaust Memorial (?) Towers in Boston last weekend with my sister and I felt sooo idk. Soo sad, horrible, and mad when I finished. There's a quote at the end of it from a reverend/priest saying, in effect, "well, they hadn't come for me so I hadn't spoken up. When they came for me, there was no one else to speak up for me." Just a dropping moment.

I'm honestly not surprised. I often feel like I'm left last. Not to matter, anyway. Time for me to work through all that.

Thing I Can't Live Without: 1) ibuprofen (only for right now, while the knee is healing). 2) my family 3) my church (family) 4) my close friends. I love them to death. 5) Pandora (on my phone) 6) the Bible. 7) a pen and paper. Hmmm, probably more than that, but all I can think of right now lol

Starting to feel a bit irritated because of the pain. Sooo taking ibuprofren after breakfast.

I honestly want you right here and helping me; I always miss you--and talking to you--but I don't like to admit it to you or anyone else. I know I can't have you, though. And that's ok, sometimes I have to be tough. I was raised that way for a reason.

Please pray for me; I will be having surgery on Friday. I'm very calm about it. I had a GREAT ten-minute prayer session yesterday in the sanctuary of my church. It kind of changed my anxiety over it...since it will be my first surgery (I've ever had). --- Also, please pray for those men and women (boys and girls) who are dealing with difficult pasts and pray that they recover and heal as they pick up their pieces of the fragmented and broken traumas that have occured, so that they may make sense of it in such a way that these people may grow far beyond (positively) their capacities to forgive

Feeling pretty satisfied today. Woo.

LOL. I had to read that five times to understand what you meant lollllll.

Lying in bed, resting my eyes. Need to get myself off the bed and packing for tomorrow and at least complete one thing off my list.

AWWWWW. ARDIII. So cutee! You look Indo lol (I now "hang out" with enough of them to tell, oh and they're all really cool haha). I don't think I've laughed this hard in a week LOL. Typical Dax response. ROFL. Will, you've grown so much. Joe, you are so cuuute . There is no way that you look like a Jonas Brother....

Sitting in my church, enjoying the quiet time.

Really? lol. Glad to serve as one, finally.

Anxious...probably over nothing.

Tired and curious.

I'm too tired to explain myself. One of the most interesting ways people connect to fantasy is that there are some "believable", or real, elements in it. I never said i'd want the Hunger Games to occur in real life. I don't think it would be possible, because behavioral conditioning like that goes significantly against human morality. I thought it was interesting that the Hunger Games' premise developed on the fact that these people in Panem use people for sacrificial offering as a way to ensure a world without war, which I'm totally against and think is horrific; but, if you really thin

I saw the movie (I didn't think I was going to watch it tbh). I have never read the books, but I approached this movie from a realistic context: can events in the Hunger Games become realized in real life? Probably not anytime soon, so in the beginning I didn't like it that much. But, towards the middle I found myself anticipating what comes next. I did think there needed to be some editing and clarification of dialogue, but I loved it. Could have done without some special effects (some of them were very obvious). I did like how they blended some current cultural elements with futuristic styl

Thank you. And about your latter comment about your boyfriend....everyone should support you and care for you no matter what. That's how I made the transition in my life. I refuse to have anyone in it who doesn't do either of those two things. --- I'm both blessed and incredibly grateful today. We had an Easter Sunrise Service at a park. I came home at 12 Midnight and passed out by 12:45, and was texted at 5:30. A church couple picked me up from my house and treated me to coffee and we drove to the park. But, it wasn't just any park. As God would inevitably have it, we held our servi

YOU HIT THE NAIL ON THE HEAD!!!! I'm giving you a book to read about that stuff. When I get a copy xD, I'm reading a borrowed copy now. I will be praying for you. --- Please pray for my church, for the following weeks....that we reach larger, positive success in the mission we are working in. xoxo.

Just finished my coffee, listening to music, and sitting in my church's social hall.

Please pray for my friend who is going through a tough time and is out on her own but it trying to transition to moving out of her state. She called me the other day and I had to talk her into letting go of the reaction she wanted to take against someone. I spent an hour and a half on the phone with her. Also, please pray for me. I'm going through some delierate changes after realizing the strength in commitment and the necessity to let go and continue on no matter how impeded I am. I'm trying to let go of fear, feeling unjustified, uncertaintity, and--most importantly--anger and bitterness

I hate quoting myself, but WOW. LOL, it is so interesting to see what I write especially if I don't remember it! Haha, that's fantastic. My weekend sucked horribly, but I kept hold of God's good guidance and intentions. Sometimes it's really hard to trust that things will ever turn out ok when there is such a negative spiral and plateau of emotions coursing through me. I don't have problems with my emotions, but I do occasionally have triggers and one of them was invoked last weekend through no direct fault of anyone else's. So, I'm very very very blessed to have so many great opportuniti

I love my friends, my co-workers (for the most part haha), my church, and God. Woo!